too much bad at one time

I know we're only four days into this month but I'm going to go ahead and call April utter crap. C's cousin committed suicide on Saturday but was kept alive on machines until today. She was only in her early thirties, it's such a shock. She had been depressed for a long time but I never imagined this outcome. My heart is just aching for her and her parents and siblings. She was just a delight to be around and was very welcoming to me when C and I first started dating all those years ago.

Thursday is our 3 year TTCversary. Not good times around here. Can you keep us in your thoughts and prayers?