the surgery

C's surgery lasted longer then originally thought and we are finally back at my ILs. He is fine and currently is crashed out thanks pain meds. My head is spinning from all the information though. They found sperm, hiding in the middle of C's testicles! They took biopsies and are freezing the sperm they find. It won't be a lot but they are freezing it for us!! There was no varicocele but H's vas deferens had been cut in two by our inexperienced Dr. Nuts back home. Luckily, they were able to reconnect it. Not sure how we'll pursue informing Dr. Nuts but rest assured, he will be told.

Dr. L urged us to go the IVF route and expressed his doubt over the docs back home being able to do a good job. (Imagine that!) Once I agreed, he got on the phone and got a RE to squeeze me in tomorrow morning here in Houston. This RE is suppose to be one of the best and I am thrilled!

So, forced break is over and IVF is on! I am stunned, scared, hopeful and excited all at once. Busy day tomorrow with new RE, follow up for H and my birthday!

A New Year

4 days in and I am still amazed that it's 2010 already. I am very relieved that 2009 is over, that was one year that really wore out it's welcome. 2010 just feels different to me, fresh and promising and all sparkly. Although I know we won't be having a baby this year, as was our plan, I am still hopeful I can end the year pregnant. Anything is possible at this point and I am doing my best not to be depressed and crazy. I want the feeling of stabbing stupid people to go away so that I can be a happier person, especially out in public. I have to stop making snarky comments to people, it's one of my resolutions. We'll see how that works out for me.

I've been doing a lot of thinking lately about everything we are going through and about what lies ahead of us. We have a plan! A few months after C's surgery, my RE is going to run a SA and if the numbers are good, my butt will be on Clomid and Metformin. If the numbers are less then ideal, it's either IUI or IVF time. If the numbers just aren't there, we'll wait a few more months. We don't know what is going to happen, there is no way to know at this point but we are hopeful that everything will work out. Very hopeful. It feels good.

the Wizard of Houston

Here we are, another appointment with our MFI guru in Houston today. C's procedures are in 4 hours, we are very anxious to get them over with already. We are still feeling very hopeful and just have not prepared ourselves to hear anything bad. I really hope this works out to our advantage. I'll be sure to update once we get back to my ILs.

This little tune has been stuck in my head ever since we drove down here Friday:

We're off to see the Wizard, the wonderful Wizard of Houston
because because because....
because of the wonderful things he does.


Seriously, it's stuck in my head. If Dr. L gives us great news today, he will forever be known as Dr. Wizard.