Luckily, this Christmas came and went without me wanting to stab anyone, I call that a success. However, I did come down with the flu Christmas Eve night and have been miserable ever since. My fever is gone but I feel like I've been hit by a truck. I am definitely getting a flu shot next year! And, if you're keeping count, this makes the third time in two months that I've been sick. The nasty stomach bug at Thanksgiving must have kicked off a party in my immune system...thanks. I'm taking vitamins like you wouldn't believe.
With 2011 staring me down, I can no longer deny the inevitable truth; we are going to cycle in a mere few months. Our break is almost over and I can't hide behind 2010 anymore. I was literally in shock the other night as I realized how fast 2010 flew by for us. Our water hose is still in the backyard, waiting to be put away with the other Summer stuff and I never got around to making C cover our water faucets outside..oops. I still catch myself staring longingly at our uber redneck plastic kiddie pool, which is still outside too, and wanting to climb inside with a huge margarita, like I did all Summer. Where did the year go?
I've mentioned how scared I am to jump back on the IF roller coaster, and I am, it scares the hell out of me thinking about the doctors and the needles and the overwhelming information and the money and the fact that it might not work. I can't imagine how we'll pick ourselves back up if it doesn't work. But, I'm starting to get excited too. I want to cycle, I want to try for our baby and cycling is a way to achieve that. I want a baby more than I'm afraid of IVF. So, 2011, bring it. We're ready to jump head first into it all again.
Since C is barely five months into his new job, he can't take any time off until around February. So, we're going to be setting up consultations with Dr. L (our MFI guru) and finding me a new RE, again, This will be my third RE but I want the best and won't settle anymore. So, looks like more trips to Houston are on the agenda as we prepare to cycle. We hope to cycle this coming Summer and oh man, I so pray and hope it works. If not, we're also going to start looking at adoption agencies starting in January, just so we know who is out there and who we like.
We want our baby and 2011, you better deliver.