I'm grateful that a talk show dedicated an entire show to IF and I'm grateful that some celebrities are willing to be so open about their struggles. Any opportunity to educate the people in my life about IF is golden in my book so I made sure my Mom, SIL and one of my BFFs watched it. I even posted about it on FB. The show annoyed me on many levels and I wish they had covered azoospermia or PCOS, hell, if they had even mentioned them I would be happy but oh well. I also would have liked more stories from couples dealing with IF, more in depth time to explore the emotions that come with IF.
What I want is for my loved ones to see the view from my eyes. I want them to see the tears I hide, the ache we have for a baby and the despair that often accompanies the surgeries and doctor appointments. I wish they could feel what it's like for us to endure all the gatherings when we're the only ones without children. I wish they could see the hell that is Mother's Day and Father's Day. The hurt of putting up with other people's stupid remarks. I want them to see how badly I wish I could decorate our nursery, rub my baby bump and show off my ultrasound pictures.
I would like to be understood by the people closest to me. My mind knows that IF is something nobody can understand unless they've been through it but my heart wishes they could.