Yesterday I hit a milestone that I've been looking forward to for quite some time- my 30th birthday! Yep, I officially left behind my twenties and slid into my thirties, it only hurt a tiny bit. I had a big party Saturday and got appropriately trashed, it was wonderful. I didn't think I had a hangover but I did feel very blah all day. Guess that's the price you pay as you get older and try to drink like you're still a young thing in your twenties...ha!
I remember my 20th birthday, I was super depressed about it and just wanted to avoid it at all costs. I was so unhappy about leaving behind my teens and actually shed a few tears about it, can you say drama queen?! But here I am, ten years later, and while my life is definitely different, I wasn't sad about it. I was happy to celebrate 30, it feels like a new beginning for me, a fresh start. A chance to get everything right in my life and find happiness. I just know my thirties will be my best decade yet!
The only moment I had that sucked was late last night when I thought about how this was my first birthday as a single lady. I got a little wistful thinking about all the birthdays I celebrated with C and wondered what this birthday would have been like if we were still together. He always did so good on my birthday and made it special for me. I didn't even hear from him but guess that's not surprising, even if it did hurt my feelings. This is divorce and sometimes, that's just a struggle to accept.
I might not be where I thought I'd be at this age or have all the answers but I'm on my way and know this will be my best yet. I feel like my life is just beginning and I can't wait to see what adventures await me. Here's to my next 30 years!